I think I found her

Unlike most people. I have a mind with no absolute ‘off’ switch. It’s almost like having a fixation for something. But I’m no where near clinically mental. I think I found her. It’s different this time round. I am able to discern whether or not it’s infatuation. She installs purpose in me. She restores the chasm left by dad. She doesn’t mirror me. In fact If I was a word, she’d be my antonym. The perfect sidekick.

I’ve been feeling rather lethargic recently. But I can’t sleep. My body refuses and abstains from sleep. Thus I am sleep deprived. It has been 4 days since I last had a proper 8 hour sleep. The following 4 consecutive days of long nights has rocked my daily schedule and mood. I can’t phatom my own emotions. I need something to revitalise my life.

Maybe it’s her. Maybe If I tell her my true intention. I could find my watershed.

But I can’t haste it. Must persevere.